I think it's going to work out
I think in the end I'm going to be okay
I think this because I know I won't always be happy but I also know I won't always be sad
I'm okay with that, in fact I think it's grand
I want to reach the bottom, I want to drown in everything that I hate
I want my skin to boil and burn, I want my heart to break so hard I feel like glass shards are lodged in my lungs.
When I'm nervous and scared
I want my ribs to tangle with each other the way trees made best for climbing split the sky
I want my fingernails to have blood and dirt under them, I want my fingers to break
I want my toe to stub on the edge of the coffee table every time I walk by, trying to find my keys and instead finding my dog has eaten my fifteen page essay, the one I forgot to save a copy of.
I want this because I also want to fall so hard for a girl that I can't feel my hands or my feet.
I want her to love me as much as I'm going to love her.
I want to walk into class and hear my teacher tell me I aced the test I didn't study for
I want so badly for the Earth to crumble under my feet
So that when I fly, my feet won't miss the ground
I want her to never look in my direction and the wind to always blow on the wrong days
I want it to snow a billion hurricanes
So that when it's hot, when the sun has finally come out
It will feel like the very first time
I'm going to fall, I know that now.
Some days I'm going to walk and some days I'm going to need to be carried
I think it's going to be okay though
I think it's going to work out.
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